Time passes…sometimes… in amazing ways…

So, yesterday’s post was a bit sad for me to write. I felt really flat the whole day after writing it… and who would have thought that that took me about an hour to write!

So today, is going to be a bit lighter… After feeling crap yesterday, and a bit emotional and all those good things, I got home. And my sister was there, just smiling. It was really good to see her. And my partner was there, and he wrapped his arms around me “Hello Angel, how was your day?” And I was calmed.

All the anxiety and raw emotion I had been feeling just vanished when I was folded into his arms. And that is just the best feeling in the world. To have someone there, who, no matter what’s going on, when they hug you, the world just goes silent for a moment and you get to just be. Just exist. Everything else fades into the background… and it just can’t be picked up again, because the truth is… its over… what ever happened is past… and now we can move forward.

One day I’ll tell you how I met him… and you might say I fell for him because of the adrenalin rush going through my veins…. Maybe I did… but I grew to love him because of so many more different reasons…

And today I just want to be grateful for him. Technically (I think) today is our 3 year anniversary – well, it will actually be in the early hours of tomorrow morning… but it was the 1st (actually 3rd, but we’ll get to that another day as well) time we kissed…. and carried on kissing each other on a regular basis, and so here we are…

I hope that I never stop appreciating him for who he is, and that he continues to love and support me in the so many ways that he does. This relationship is so different to anything else I’ve ever had in my life… And I am blessed to have him here with me. Lucky isn’t the right word… Luck isn’t the game here… blessed, a wish was granted… and he appeared… from right out of a fairy tale…

Let me tell you some of the many reasons why I appreciate him (in no particular order):

1. He loves me unconditionally
2. He does not test me, or push my buttons just because he can
3. He supports any of the crazy decisions I make, and when he doesn’t agree with them, he will tell me why… and he always makes sense
4. He has never ever looked down at me for not knowing or understanding something
5. He listens
6. He pays attention
7. He still opens my car door for me
8. He holds my hand whenever we are anywhere
9. He closes his eyes when he kisses me
10. Every night as we fall asleep, I find myself in his arms, snuggled tight
11. He thinks about me and speaks to me about things before making any big(ish) decisions
12. He phones me to tell me the strangest and arbest things sometimes
13. He washes my car
14. He does ALL our dishes
15. He knows how to cook
16. He knows mostly what I do and don’t eat
17. He does not do drugs or drink copious amounts of alcohol
18. He is ALWAYS right
19. He lets me love him
20. He understands me in a way that no-one else has ever tried to
21. He makes me laugh – often. At myself, at him, at everything
22. He is gorgeous
23. His smile
24. The way he looks at me
25. He moved towns to be with me – he gave up everything he knows for me – not something that’s easily done
26. He can always make a dull day seem bright and a bright day even brighter
27. The sun is always shining around him
28. He does not have a mean bone in his body
29. He is always calm… when I sometimes act like a chicken with her head cut off, he is my rock. My centre
30. He puts me in my place when I need it
31. He loves me unconditionally

He is my Angel. My knight in shining armour… and there are many more reasons why I appreciate him…. but there’s a good start… so… I propose a toast… to him… to all the men like him… who do what they say and say what they do. To all those with integrity, honour and loyalty. To all those with respect and love and only good things for your partners… You guys are few and far between! May you always exist in real life!!!